Do you think Im paranoid?

I swear Im so paranoid at night that someone or something is looking through my window cause my window is huge its a bay window in a trailer no ocean around dont ask it was built like that but anways at night Im really paranoid about that and have a knife by my bed waiting for something to get in to shank the hell out of it repetively I cant stand to have any windows open at night or I freak out because I think something is gonna jump out and get me Im so paranoid that Im buying a shotgun to put by my bed fully loaded with safety off why?